it's complicated...
MY,i'll try to think abt tat u told me...
i tink u're right too...
but i jz it's not really good enough...
i tink...
mayb it'll nth chges...
now...
jz let d time to help me to do a decision...
i dun wan to decide dis topic 1st...

well...
X'mas is over!!!
dis year quite awesome...
whole family members BBQ...

and nex is tmw 31st!!!
i'll going to countdown v MG n some of my primary frens!!
sry annie cuz i'd promised MG tat dis year will be ountdown v her dis year...
if can...
i hope tat annie n i can countdown together every year~
nvm la...
nex year^^...

烦啊!!!!
明年到底要怎样??

每个人都有自己选折的权利...
在你的眼前是有很多选择让你选...
就好像每个人都有个自己的"my mapping"酱...
不过一但选了那道路后...
也许就无法再回头了...

也就是说...
你的人生就像一中magic...
jz depends on u how to use it...
if u chose a wrong option...
u'll regrets in yr whole life...

原本两个表哥plan好了their future's way...
就因为一件事tat most of the ppl都无法prevent的事...
破坏了plan...
搞到全家人都为了这件事烦恼...
每个人都想着办法来解决&补救这个问题...
but i think...
最累最怕的人并不是我们...
是他自己...

money...
life...
it's very essential for everyone...

烦啊!!!!
我到底要选着哪一条路啊??
i'm really really fucking scared i made a wrong decision!!!
which one is the better way??
时间越来越靠近了...
how should i do??...

14th December 2Dahlia(2009) gathering at desa park...

it's an awesome day for me afterall...
bring along v my "darling"-camera...
but i still duno hw to use it... =(
yaikz~

hv our dinner at steamboat restaurant...
after tht playground...
snapped lots of pic...
but it's kinda blur...TT...

nvm!!
i'll snap it v my pro's version...
haha...

and we played like sakai...


the most part tat i hate is SPINNING!!!
thx for d SPINNING for making me wanna feel vomit...
but pretty fun actually...XD

den we walk bside the lake halfway...
annie n gramps wanna buy sushi b4 going bck home...


we saw a sport car!!!
it's awesome!!
and everyone like sakai...
screaming say:tat's mine!! tat's my car!!
==''...
every strangers are looking at us...
n some were smiling at us...
annie n i walk far away frm dem quickly...
haha...
bt dis still is my 2 Dahlia...
^.^


quite dissappointed tat some ppl dint attend today...
hope tat dey can make it nex time...


LOVE u 2Dahlia...u'll be alwys part of my memories... =D

oh ya...
by the way...
MERRY CHRISTMASS!!!!
^^

it's been a long time i dint touch dis dust dy...
haha...
still in PENANG!!!
almost got 1 month dy...
i MISS my bed!!!!
i MISS my life!!!
nvm...
tahan more 5days...

pretty miss u guys...
including MG n Nicole...

yaikz...
my dearly & stubborn uncle...
u had kena 2 times dy...
dis is 3rd times...
really really serious...
everyone are very anxious abt u...

one time...
cht v mom...
i dun get it...
why my cousin n my aunt so sensitive abt "human talking" words...
cuz of my aunt too sensitive...
made my cousin misunderstanding...
jz dun get it y a family members like us...
cnt jz hv a healthy life??...
crap...
almost drop tears in d car...

lolx...
mayb cuz of i'm too miss my house dy...

forget abt it...

i wanna buy a CAMERA!!!
mom, u'd promised me to buy a camera for me~
before christmass i'll get u, CAMERA!!!

oh ya...
PS...
hope tat every girls might buy The Face Shop's products...
Kym Hyun Joong!!!!!!

Free from JAIL!!!!!

hope can go in 4CEM larh...

i tot after today it'll be my holiday dy...
bt...
T^T
tmw n fri hv to go attend dun wt ting...
abt F4 de...
so hv to~

kinda regret join tht Amazing Race...
cuz hv to go scl...
nvm larh...
can make more memories at scl...
*tinking positive~
haha...

i wanna wtch "tong yan"!!!!!
3D more qi kek!!!
muahahaha....

bt every girls cant go...
sad~
if go v neo thm...
jz me a girl...
hw??....

go genting oso hw lea??
gathering till nw oso hvnt decide wanna go whr...
go a place to ply oso can let me headahce~

huyo...

hang out v MG is d best way one lo...
jz call her thn can dy...
no need to tink too much...

study KH half way~
" wan go swim??"...
is MG~
den she come my hse noon...
eve go swim...

actually...
nt swim~
jz cht in d swimming pool nia...
haha...

den go pyramid...
hving dinner v cousin too...
thai food....

sooooooo exhausted
bt happy d is...
can cht v MG lo...

wah...
seems like we'd been recognize 9 years...
hope we can be frens 4evar!!

n mayb colledge same too...
TeeHee *~^^~*

PMR

BM-20/40 (nt reli sure d ans)
BI-37/40(whn i heard dis news feelingness...duno y...mayb...unless i got my BI p1+p2 still happy)
others duno yet....

hmm.....
seems like everyone's result quite good...
bt mine...
nt really good...
even most of my primary frens better thn mine...

pls larh guys...
dun keep showing off or wt on d FB...
jz let those who cant get better thn u guys d result will feel upset nia...
it wont be too late to show it whn u got d real result...

nvm...
forget abt it...

jz SMILE and hope i'll get into my path way to d dreams....

=)

after SEJ period...
no mood dy...
cuz of??
many mistakes on teacher gave us d model paper...
fine...
i dun wanna say anything...

after eng tution...
more no mood...
cuz of??...
summary got 6 and 7...
objective many mistakes...
teacher said...
my graphic damn cha...
agree v tht...
in front of d 10 Q...
guess wt??..
i jz got it 5 correct nia...
useless....
if i get PMR result like this...
sure i'll insane...

WTH is wrong v me these days arh??...
its reli in a control situation at first...
bt nw...
getting worse....
Lord!!!
wt r u planning for the Human nw??...

at begining...
had gained lots of energy...
nw??....

haih...
suak...
dun say dis n tat dy...

keep doing n memorizing...
till PMR...
whnever hw hard it is...
sure i'll continue put effort...

guys...
still left abt 7 days...
done packing to ''hell''?...

even keep doing model test oso useless...
used to much on brain...
cant rmbr anything...

duno weather keep doinglike dis is gud for me or not...
this while week....
1 smth still felt as sleep...

duno WTH is wrong v me oso...

mayb gonna get a cold soon....
sneezing...

so many things waiting for me to understand...
so many things waiting for me to tink...
so many things waiting fo me figure it out...
so many things waiting for me to do a decision...
so many things waiting for me to plan...

every night....
every hours....
..........
headache larh....

disappear to a place tat thr's no one...

no joyment...
no melancholy...
no radiant...
no excitement...

Phuket trip part 1~

evening go airport eat Burger King....
tat french fries was nice n crispy....
at least better thn McD...

after 1 hr flight....
still hv 1 hr destination by car to hotel....
den meet Uncle Alen's family....
they jz staying our nex door niah....
haha....

after dinner hv a walk along d street....
i dint saw any ah gua at 1st....
but whn we went in a street tat hv many pubs....
OMG...
thr's many girls or i'm nt sure is ah gua....
was dancing around up thr n so many wthching....
and some took some video even my dad oso....
haha....

walk....walk....
whn i was walking v my fren hu is jz a little girl abt 7 yrs old....
a fcking Thai guy go n touch her face!!!
i was shocked tat time...
thn she ran away to her mom...
n i jz stared fiercely on tat mother fucker Thai guy...
wtf v tat guy larh....
even a little girl oso wanna touch...
go n do ah gua larh...
most hate those guys...
EVER!!!

we bought some supper....
walk bck hotel n ate at d balcony....

nex day tmw still post la....
nex day d will be more fun....

信心!!!!!!!!
come back please!!!!!!!
without you i cant do anything~!!!!!!!
i keep doing sejarah exercise....
but yet....
still 60-65 nia....
still need 5 marks.....
still needs 6 Q arghhhhh!!!!!!
alwys keep doing....
dint improve....
no信心ald larh!!!!!
i dun wan jz 3A....
i wan 4A....
please lah.....
come back to me.....
alwys do do do.....
why cant improve??....
i ald duno hv how many days i dint do science ald.....
i still hv to care science....
still wanna care sej....
arghhhh!!!!!!
hard to arrange it larh!!!!!

now i jz need u....

信心!!!!!
信心信心信心信心信心信心!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
回来回来回来回来回来回来!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Life Recycling....
sucks~.....

duno why suddenly so tired....
suddenly no energy....
suddenly feels no 信心....
i cant get 4A....
Sej...jz improved a bit....
BI...i wanna get more higher....
SC....scared suddenlty get a B come bck....
MM....same as sc.....

panic.....

but fortunately....
hv few buddies is always beside me....
i LOVE u guys....

Mei Guan...
if i hv a life n brain like yrs sure i'll hang out v u now....
so jz tahan a while...
after 1 mnth i'll hang out v u....

thx yr words....
made me more energy nw....
^^....

GAMBATEH~!!!!!

i hate "u"!!!!
i hate my double chin~!!!
haiz....
my face day after day....
getting fatter and fatter already....

i said i'll not eat too much at night...
but jz nw suddenly hungry....
and my stupid bro say wanna cook baigans to do sandwich....
haiz....
really hard to control larh....

tmw go jogging....
these 2 weeks exercise everyday....
hope i relly can do tat....

and i jz said some brainless words v my mom....
"nvm....if no ones wan me...i jz married to a fat boy oso ok....bt at least tat guy must hv a good job....at least can "feed" me...."...
haha....

sometimes....
whhn i'm talking v someone....
i felt my double chin was shaking u knw....

tats why i reli reli reli scared my double chin can turn to a TRIPLE chin....

PMR!!!!~
ON DIET!!!!~
hooorraayyyyy~

half day happy....
half day unhappy.....

mei xin told me abt yr things.....
smoke??....
lol....
up to u.....

whn someone ask me to list out....
whn i'm tinking abt u....
hw was d person are u in my mind....

plyful....
quite clever de bt dint reli used it
talkative
quite good
and said b4 d words dint take action....

tat person ask again....
thn u like dis kind of person??....

my hands stopped....
did i like dis type of person???.....
did i??....

ans....
not reli.....

and d person says....
cause 没有爱.....
lack of love.....

ya rite.....
ald lack of love between he n i....

this time i ald awake....
i reli reli awake.....

i'll nt going to bck v u....
this is d last time i said.....
i swear.....

YAY~!!!!
our 2 weeks of vacation started nw.....
BOoOO~!!!!
our war oso started nw.....

guys~
it's a good news u knw....
teacher gave us extremely lots of practice books....
sej hv to finish whole book....
even eng too.....
bc 2 model test n essays.....
eng essay....
science 2 sets....
math jz 1 set....
plus my home's practice books....

do more gain more....
haha.....

11-14 go pukit....
4 days dere....
grab books to read at dere.....

lol....
i'm unique k??....
i can study v nature sounds n view.....
d ocean wave's sounds....
u guys jz jealous cant study it like tat isit....
haha....
jkjk....

actually i oso nt sure i can reli study at dere onot....
bt try lo.....

i read a book tat i borrow frm Pn.Ong....
i found a nice one.....

....每个人都有自己的一片天空....

....那片天空是多么的美丽....

....最终都要用奋斗的双手去把它变成现实....

....只要不放弃自己....

....坚持下去....

....就能实现人生价值....

kek cht v me today....
he said whn we broke up....
u're so so so sad....
even at d midnight u still cant slp....
evan at d midnight u still sms kek....

kek said....
u both reli ant couple bck again ah....

i said....
u hvnt chged....
u hvnt reli reli put effort on yr exam....
coz u said those wt u'll hardwork....
n get a good result...
n wt wt wt.....
those nonscence....

u said hw could i together v u bck??....
if u hvnt chged yr attitude or wt....
if i bck v u together....
den if it happen same things again....
i scared will happen again.....

if u reli reli chged....
mayb i'll still "consider"....
jz consider....

bt the thing tat i scared n worried is....
even myself oso duno still luv u onot....

tats why i dint tell anything out....
n tats why i rather choose a way....
tat can be made me bz till forget to tink ths tngs....

confuse....
confuse....
confuse....

n you suddenly email to me....
"how is yr exam"....
i'm still thinking weather wan replyu u onot....
n i tink....
i hurt u so so much b4....
and now....
i replied u....
" great....improved a lot...."
this words as simple n sounds dint hurt a lot...."

muahahahaha~!!!!

i get dual sbj in 77 marks today....
haha....

1st is mahts....
gt a bit disappointed....
i expect tat i'll get 80 smth....
nvm lah....
at least improved 3 marks....
haha....

2nd is scinece....
d most happiest things is....
i'd beat mong seng....
haha....

this time jz get 2A....
nvm...
keep moving!!!!!....

those whnever u're improved or worse thn last time de...
nvm...
u guys hv to stand up n keep continue to walk....
still gt times....
it's not d time to upset nw....

so we hv to prepare nex "war"....
haha....

4 things tat i most hate....

doing for smth tat shouldn't done....
MOOD....

crying for smth tat shouldn't cried....
FEELINGS....

changing smth tat shouldn't chged....
ATTITUDE....

loving for someone tat shouldn't loved....
HEART....

mood, feelings, attitude, heart....
i hate them....

if human being dun hv these 4 thigns...
mayb the world'll be peaceful...

有机会的,并没有XXX....
并没有把握与珍惜....

而一些...
处处是有半点希望与机会的....
并没有去争取....
到了机会走了....
采来后悔....
可是已迟了....
因为.................

那时候明明就是可以爱....
可是他们为什么就是不能??....
可惜的是.................................

我不明白....
为什么就是不能够单纯的爱呢??

说走就走....
说来就来....
很难控制....

其实x是很想要告诉x,x心里的话....
X很难采用有那么大的勇气....
X既然说出那些话来伤X....

呼....
confuse....
very confuse....

爱情就是一个谜....

i rather choose my life would be busy everyday....
i rather i hv examination everyday....
i rather dont wan love anyone....
i rather dont wan recognize u frm a begining....
i rather dont wan love u....
i rather dont let u come into my world....

说真的...
在考试的镇个星期....
我几乎是可以把你忘了....
可是考试后.....

我现在才明白你们当初jealous我的感觉了....
haha....
但我看到有人很恩爱时....
就会浑身不知在了....

算了....
慢慢就会习惯了....

在这里下定决心....
不再爱任何一个人了....

yay me~!!!!

i got 60 on my SEJ~!!!
muahahahha....
improved 12 marks....

d most surprised me d is...
chinese i got 23 correct....
HOHO~...
b4 tat it's jz 16 or 17 niah...

today sooooo dramatic lea~...
soo teng cried...
teacher cried....
me too...
mei xin too...
khar yi too...

haha....
i'm falling in love v........
Pn.DEVI rite nw...!!!!
haha....

................................................................

lol....
u said u'll starting to hardwork...
n try yr best to gain a good result come bck...
u said u'll chge...
u said u'll gain 8A's come bck...

nonscencse....

u got 37 on yr sej...
n teacher giv a chance for all of us to let us pass....
bt u dint go n gain d 3 marks...

it means...
u're nt care on yr marks at all....

i tot u're reli reli reli chged....

fine...

it's nt my business nw...

....................................................................................

monday....
soooo excited....^^.....

...............................................................................

4A's...

BI.....
SCIENCE.....
MATHS.....
SEJ.....

4 of u...
waiting for me
haha

Coffee~

drink 1st cup...
still sleepy...

drink 2nd cup...
ok...
got gain half of energy....

nite...
1smth...
felt like canot breath...

go slp...
cnt slp...
f*ck...
whn i wan full of energy u feel slpy...
whn i wan slp u full of energy...

nex day...
more worse...
even whn i was talking oso cnt breath...

reli reli xing ku...
nvm...
still got 2 days...

一定要坚强...

insane~...gonna be insane~....

it's truth...

爱情是个可怕&奇怪的东西...

它虽然会带来幸福....

不过也会带来伤心...

难道这世界上就不能够没有爱情吗??...

真的很难控制...

当我真的真的开始不在乎你的时候...

你却突然出现...

当你出现后...

又把我的心带回来...

明明已经跨出了一半的....

拜托...

爱情别再这样戏弄人类了好吗??...

不过我一定会坚持到底的...

send me a mail at fb....
i ald giv up....

finally...
say it out frm himself...

at fb chat list...
he said...

~jz wanna say thank you...

and i send a mail to him...

~hope u'll find another one that better than me someday....
and....
hope u'll get a good result on yr exam....
u're a smart guy...dont wasted it...

n he replied...
~ok thanks...
jz this simple 2 words...

mayb...
it means...
he ald giv up??...

sigh~
it's reli reli over...
it's a good news~...

slowly we'll put down...
n slowly we'll jz be a normal fren...

^^....

it's over~....

finally...
heard frm kek....

(he'd ald giv up on u ald...
so no need to say those hurts him d words anymore...)

my feeling...
half happy...
half feeling down...

but...
it's ok...
coz i starting dint feel anything...
whn celine n him walking together...
like no feeling ald lo...

haha...
it's a good news...

i'd said...
i'll put u down someday...

今天既然又X了.....

分开....
对我们的未来会有好处....
也是因为我的自私....

在班满尴尬...
党要去问老师问题时...
走到一半....
看到你在那里....
变转身回来了....

下课....
看到你和celine一起走....
心情还可以....

可是到了放学....
在你的后面又看到你们一起走....

心情....
低落....

在你们的后面走着....
觉得你们满配的....

到了canteen....
美心一问我做么...
我就跟他说刚才....
美心一说...是啦...一看到就看到你的....

一下子....
X了....
好才全部人都去买东西了....

LOL....
这不是你想要的吗??....
不是说了要放下吗??....
既然都做好决定了还想那么多干嘛??....

有时....
会影响到读书....
所以一直想办法去避免想....

................................................................................

~ Small eyes....!!!
~ Shut up....yr eyes jz bigger than mine 0.5cm ony k??...
~ okok....but oso bigger than u wt....
~ ==''....so?? oso small larh at least....

...............................................................................

~ yimin...come....
WALKING DERE
~ wt??....
~ your eyes so small....
~ ==''....
WALKING BCK....

..............................................................................

~ eh....走啦我请你吃东西....
~ 很不双老师咯....!!!
~ 做么??....
~ 都不会同情给一点时间人家写的!!还跟人家抢考试纸!
~ 啊呀他是讲得拉~...你看我的手很冷列....
把手放到我的脸来....
真个人呆了....
只是傻傻的....也跟着讲....
~ 是咯~我也是~刚才一边写一边斗....
只是咪咪笑笑...

..............................................................................

~ 喂~ 你在哪里??.........
~ 我啊~ 在车回着penang lo....
~ 噢....江没有拉....bb....

.............................................................................

............折了星星..............

~ 顺杰...我丢看你接到没有....
~ 不是....desa 你不是应该去的mea....
tck mng 跑去前面....
~ 来!!!依敏....看你丢给谁....!!

把星星丢去另一边了...
actually wanna throw to.....

...........................................................................

.............msn..................

~ bye bye...giv me a goodbye kiss....
~ no....
~ why....
~ coz why i wan give lea?....
~ no reason....
.........................................................................

~ slp ald??....
~ hvnt...cnt slp....
~ why??....
~ duno....
~ must be a reson d....
~ duno....
~ tell me why??....
~ cuz i duno someone tinking wt....
~ hu??
~ duno....u guess....
~ hu? i duno....
~ u larh!!!!....
~ oh...why u tinking abt me??....
~ wt the....i dun wan talk v u ald...
~ i knw tat "ting"....
~ can u tell me wt are u tinking nw??...u nt like XXX mea? why still come n confess v me??....
~ i dun like XXX....
~ really??
~ ya la...den y i everday oso stick v you bside yr place??....
~ cuz i tot dere is more windy more cold...n...i tot u like 2 ppl...
~ no larh...so....wt is yr ans nw??....

...........开始做龙他............

~ wt answer??
~ u duno wt ans arh?
~ duno o...if u ask properly again maybe i'll knw wts d ans....
~ oh... you can be my gf??....

..........walao....一点romantic oso dun hv...........
.....................so mad abt it...........................

~ erm...let me tink 1st....
~ dun wan tink ald larh....jz say yes....
~ erm....altough yr eyes is smaller thn mine...bt i still can accept it....
so...d ans is...yes....
~ whoohoo!! ok la...den i wan slp ald...
~ WT?? like dis ony arh??u jz wan say like thse??
~ i wan slp ald ar...i'm tired nw...

............当时我就是这样被骗走的............
haiz~
...........................................................................................................

看见你on9...
有点冲动想跟你chat....
但是不能....
不可以....
一定要控制自己....

好像跟你讲话.....

dream...

i dreamed u again n again...

lol...

stop dreaming abt him anymore larh...

arggh...

jz made me headache...

morning wake up automatically think so many thingss...

haih...

as i said...

need some time...

bt sure i'll put it down one day...

n morning felt like...

half awake half slp...

n think abt hv to start to throw away those nonsence stories...

hv to work hard...

gambateh!!!

one day study 2 chpter geo...

2 chpter sej...

nice one...

^^...

let's be a nerd or bookworm in these few weeks...

yay....

i'm a nerdy...

haha

对不起...
我一定要说出这些这些绝请的话...

这样才可以伤到你更生...
这样你猜会死心...

为了我的前途...
我必须这样做...

说真的...
要放下你一定是舍不得...
我是真得很喜欢你的...
到现在还是一样...
不过我一定会为了我的前途而放下你...
我现在的心已不像再谈恋爱了...
我现在只想全心放在学业上面...
我只会永远的把你藏在我的心理...
我只可以这样做...

骗了你说我已不爱你...
你真的不相信...

所以我必须在做出更狠的话来让你停此巨续爱我...
所以我们不能够做朋友...
我们一定要做敌人...
我可以做一个很容易变心，很坏的女孩子...
就像kek所说的...
女孩子就是散变...

所以我一定要假装讨厌你...

说真的...
我现在很开心我有个single life...

tmw is my new day...
my new life...
my new single life...

this will be 维持 until after spm...
so my frens no need to anxious about me lah...
^^...
coz our yimin is coming bck soon...

说得对...
在我们的生活当中朋友对我们来说很重要...
谢谢美欣...
一样的病...haha...
谢谢老婆...
还讲笑话给我听...
谢谢elaine...
给我那么多的意见...
谢谢佩寺...
谢谢佳议& 呆舒...
谢谢kek...
谢谢传汉...
谢谢亲爱的弟弟...
还有谢谢很多人...

哭过了自然就累...
累了就睡觉...

既然梦到...
也是一样...
我们分了...
在班没有讲话...
一支躲避对方...
既然也会梦到酱...
funny~

你说你知道我还喜欢你...
你会等我直到after PMR...
你要和我巨续after PMR...
你说你会努力读书考好成绩...
你说你要和我做会朋友...

很开心你或努力...
不过我们的关系不能再换回了...
就算你考到好成绩或什么的...
我们不可能了...

我不会和你做朋友的...
我要你死心...
我也不要让你干扰到我的情绪在这两个月...
所以我们只可以做敌人...

俊铭...
thx for the memories...

huh~...

frm d begining...
yr stupid confess...
yr stupid action...
yr迟钝brain...
made me cry few times...
missing each other...

and more...
i'll hv these happy n sad memories...
thx for giving me...

mayb i'll one by one throw into d rubbish..
or mayb i'll save in my heart...

starting to enjoy my new life bah^^...

the end of d story~

总于解决问题了....
以后不会再烦这个问题了...
其实一开始明知是没有结果的还硬要踩下去...

今天是我第一天要开始慢慢放下你的一天...

也是 ''已经'' 放下你的一天...

也就是说...

今天开始已经是我不爱俊铭的一天...

也就是说...

今天我跟你分手了...

觉得松了口气...

其实一开始你想太多...
造成了大家辛苦...
造成了我开始累...恨...
到最后造成了我不喜欢你了...

就算再回一起...
回快乐吗??...

我跟一个已不爱他的人在一起...
那我回快乐吗??...
还是难道你想要跟一个以不爱你的人在一起...
那你会快乐吗??...

所以我在这里清清楚楚地告诉你...

我已经对你没有感觉了...俊铭...
我不爱你了...俊铭...


I DUN LOVE YOU ANYMORE!!!

不要再烦我了...

俊铭...
你已经走出我的世界了...

i dun care u??....
i treat u cool??....
i dint accompany u??....
i dint talk much with u??....

i'm tired of these topic nw....
i'm sick to think about these nw...
i dun wanna to explain these anymore...

i'd ald "rang bu" a lot...
bt...

in the end i jz wanna say...
i still love you...

can i both oso choose??...

huh~

funny...

i tot it'll be ok...

i tot it was manage nicely...

i tot it'll be changed till...

lols...

all jz my "thaught"...

if both also can handle it...

it'll be better...

but...

these days i was very bz of my "books"...
coz trial exam is coming...
so i hv to work more hard...

n coz of ths...
i'd colded my lao gong...
bt at least i gt cht v u rite??
afte i'd done...
sure i'll find u...

u mad of me again...
i oso felt some sry abt tht...
bt day over day...
time over time...
i'm getting anxious abt my result...

coz of my sej till nw i still cant get confident on it....
coz of my geo till nw can say my whole form3 oso duno wts happening on it...
so i hv to solve ths all prob den i still wont keep worrying ths things...

i saw many ppl in d class starting very hard to prepare deir examination...
made me more anxious...

so i cant jz leave it my prob go n ply or wt...
thrs not enough time for me anymore...

day after day jz letting me more worry abt it...

u said i dint care abt u...
u said i dint cht v u after i came bck frm hometown...

u knw why??
coz we'd nt enough time...
dont u felt any nervous or worry on yr pmr??
do u wan everyday keep plying like dis??
u wan yr sej or geo or others sbj keep dropping like dis??

if i'm nt care u anymore den hw can i everyday worrying yr result too??
sometimes whn i dint cht v u coz of i'm studying or wt...
after tht i sure come n cht v u...

bt like today...
after jian hua explained finish sej to me...
i go n sit bside u...
bt u jz cht v me few words...
i felt some bored...
nth to do...
den i saw khar yi drawer gt sej book...
den i borrow frm her n read while...
n ask her some quest...

coz of tht time i was feeling bored nth to do...
den still dun waste d time jz sitting dere n dreaming...
so i jz read while...

whn i sitting dere
u oso dun hv talk v me...

haih....
really coz of my fault...
i dint balance btw reading..
mayb its n u...

n sry made u so unhappy ths days...
i'll manage my time well...
sry lao gong...

today lao gong 1st time tell me so many abt his feelings...
so happy...

lao gong say our relationship bcame further n further...

actually i tink...
其实只要彼此的心还在对方的心den ok ald...
只要we still love each other...

even we're busy or dint chat or wt...
the main point is...
we still love each other...
and still missing each other...
rite??

like today...
when i was studying...
i felt tht i'm missing him...
bt i knw i cant cht v him...
coz i hv to finish my work 1st...

so we hv to pull bck our relationship...

sometimes i really cant control myself...
especially my dammn mouth...
i like to say those words tht are colded u or yr feelings or wt...
so made u moody n mad of me...
n made u felt tht i'm nt care u...

i jz duno why...
sometimes i like to say some words tht colded u...
den after tht sometimes i'll felt some regret...
i wanna apologize sometimes...
bt我就是死爱脸...
cant say out...
so after tht i dint tink anymore...

bt sometimes i'd done something wrong...
i oso duno d...
so sometimes i jz saw u silent den i tot is u're tired or wt...
so i dint bother u...

bt oso coz of u dint tell me ma...
hw i knw jiek...

nvm...
nex time b4 i say things hv to pass through my big brain...

Sick~!!!!

ceramah still can tahan...
although felt some cold n hot...
mei yan told me i'd got a fever...

nvm...
still can move...

after ceramah walk gt a bit sengek sengek...
nvm...
go down staircase...
slipt down...
hoh chai i caught elaine...

my face starting red...
haha...
someone still say me cute...

after recess cnt tahan anymore...
called mom...

my head feeling like wanna explode...
damn heavy n wanna faint...

klinik....

dr said i gt 39high tempered...
he said...
(...a influenze A or B...so we hv to test....)
my mom n i heard till blur ad...

lol??
are u really a dr??
simply go n say i hv h1n1??
bt my mom dun understand wts influenze...
n dr said...
(we called it H1N1)...

den he ask me lie down...
n take a stick as long as a 6or 7cm d...
put into my nose...
shout...
cried...

i pushed away deir hand...
dey caught my hand...

after 10 mins...
proved...
its negative...
means tat i dint tiok lo...

nite dint slp well...
soretrought made me cant slp...
alwys keep woke up at d midnight...

nex morning...
heard my mom said my grandma was passed away...
tat means...
we hv to go bck for 5 days again...

omg...
my piano exam is nex nex monday...9Aug...
n tmw noon hv a important tution...
i'd escaped many times...
tuesdaY too...
n trial exam...
thrs no time for me to prepare dese all exam...
n my bro's nose duno why keep bleeding dese days...
duno wts happen to him...
jz go c dr...*again...
"chou xue"...
nex day still knw d result...

dese few days cant c my lao gong again...
n dis time is nt jz 3 days...
its 5 days...

haih...

these days nearly my whole family oso sick...
jz left my dad hvnt...

n so many things happen in a same time...
hw should i manage it??
d time is nt enough at all...

can i dun go bck hometown??...
no...imposibble...
tats my dad's mom...
haih...

lao gong...
these 4days canot flirt on other girls arh...
haha...

no more thinking~
as "he" say d...

thinking my chinese essay wan hw to write...
成长的喜锐...
lols??
痛苦吧??....

cincai...
both rojak cham cham n write...

.........................................................................

mom say grandma "mayb" canot tahan anymore...
my aunt ask us hv to xin li zhun bei...
prepare...

haih....
bt oso quite lucky ald larh...
oso can live till so old...

.......................................................................

friday elaine perform....
+u~
support u~

......................................................................

this sat mom's birthday...
hw??
hvnt plan to celebrate v her lea...

......................................................................

jz wanna say i LOVE u lao gong~

感情真的是让人猜不透的东西~

不~
因该说....
每个男人都是让女人猜不透的人类~

算了...
也不想多了...

还是读书吧...

still left bout 10 weeks....
nw i jz knw d words~

time and tide waits for no man...
time is money...

so..
jz stop thinking anymore larh...

headache~

these days feeling quite stress...
i'm really agree tht the poem...
Life Bries's Candle...

dont u think our life is dammn bored??...

everyday...

after scl...

score A...

bck to home...

rest...

revision...

rest...

tution...

or wtch tv...
or practice piano...
or ply comp a while...

nth's special...
dont u think our daily life jz like a recycle process??

haih...
trial EXAM!!!!!~
everyone is preparing...
i guess~

haih...
today lao gong whole day oso nt free...
jz wait him till 11smth ready to go on bed ald...

nite~
love you~

penang again~

everytime go bck dere sure i cnt sms v jm...
n dis time go bck i'd escaped an improtant science tution class...
n my piano class hv to replace again~
replace dao sien ald...
everyweek oso replace d...

nite had dinner at gurney hawker...
nt nice at all...
disappointed...

nex day cousin drive me n my cousin sis...
go gurney wtch inception...
bt ticket had sold out...

go penang road eat jendol...
quite nice...
walk along d penang road too...
many ah moh gao...

we bought batik dress...
i tink isnt a batik larh...
jz kinda like beach wear...
i guess~

nex stop is beach...
everytime go bck penang whn i saw d beach...
can feel like i'm bck to my home n let me feel relax...
thrs doesnt hv any stress...
hear d wave sounds~

finally i ate laksa n "special" char keow tiao....
haha...
d char keow tiao sooo special lo...

den we go eat "xio hu"(in hokkien)
duno wts chinese called...

c?...
i knw it...
everytime go bck my stomach sure very full d...

haih...
miss lao gong...
tat time i'm tinking tat...
sure he'll feel so bored one...
haha...

after came bck...
today whn i wear my uniform...
omg~
i'm fat nw...
last time is loose one...
nw...
is tide!!!!

oh no~
hv to control nw...
NT TO EAT TOO MUCH!!!!!!!

Sneez~!!!

Gosh!~
after went bck home keep sneezing whole day...
slp oso cnt~

sneez~ sneez~ sneez~
idiot nose larh!!!

my alergic ''fren'' come bck again!!!
hate it...
i tink cuz of my teddy bear or dog or dust or???
jz duno larh~

whole afternoon sneez non-stop~
useless nose!~

ho chai today jz sneez few times~
pls larh...
u dun wan come n find me again larh k~

still gt abt 74 days~

haiz~
so bored lea~....

listening Kim Hyun Joong's song~
nice...
and he's damn charming too~
haha...

very scared lea~
and very anxious too~

PMR is getting nearly nw~
duno wt result i can get it...

sej??...40-50 gua...oso scare fail too~
geo??...erm nt sure d...i tink 40-60 lo~
bc??...can i dun wan choose tat sbj on spm?~
bt i'm a chinese o...
haih...suan lai lah...jz forget abt bc...
i can past tat den ok ad...
bm??...erm...40-65 gua~...
MM??...60-80...i tink so??...
KH??...jz according myself ony...
c i wan read onot...
BI??..60-80...
jz scare of my BI...

hayo~...
jz shun qi zi ran larh~

dun wan tink ad...

still left 77days~

today lao gong go ipoh 1 day trip~
haiz....
bored....
miss u lea~

today go Curve shop v mom...
hahax...
bought 1 edc shirt....
quite nice...

b4 tat i saw a nike shirt...
nice...
better thn edc...
bt blck dun hv S size~
haiz...

den o...
more made me mad d is...
after i went d nike women shop o...
saw a blck colour d o...
haiz...

bt mom said i bought a shirt ad...
cnt buy ad...
haiz...TT....

go eat japanese food~
wt Sakei...
forgot its name ad...

nt nice d...
sushi...
ok ony..
nt really nice...

haiz...
very miss u lea...
wt time u come bck o...

haiz~

go do my essay 1st larh

Freaking INSANE now~

you knw wt??
.....
u're d the....tht made me cnt stop tinking u~
n miss u~
nw i so miss u n u're in my mind nw~
.....
the thing tht i like frm u~
.....
i'm telling wat i'm thinking now~

haha~
SWEET~

u jz made me cant sleep now~...

Durian~

these days our class very heng durian...
haha...
jian hua go everwhr n "hah"
let d smell til whole class oso gt durian smell...
haha...

someone cnt tahan...
someone feeling like in d fresh air...
including me...
haha....

lao gong nt like durian d...
haha....

yesterday b4 skor A class we saw a couple...
1 is prefect n girl is librarian...
feeding each other...

haha...
frm today i hv to treat my lao gong very very very sweet...

boh bian~
lao gong these days alwys come n teh me...
teh dao~...
haha....

elaine said...
whn he come n teh me i dun wan choi him...
whn he nt at here i still miss him or wt....
haha....
even pai si oso agree too...

haha....
dey oso say lao gong bcome like a baby ad larh....
haha...
teh dao~

today pjk alwys wanna rush to class...
bt teacher dun giv...
coz of??
lao gong lo...
haha....

BC...
ply game...
last one teacher call both of us go out...

lol....
feeling like is两夫妻比赛....
lian luo i oso forgot hw to write ad...

felt tat so sry made whole girls students hv to dance...
haha....

hmm...seems like today nth happen...
jz these days quite bz....

morning scl....
Skor A....
rest....
do revision abt 3 or 4 hrs...
tution...

of course sometimes sure feel very tired...
slp abt 2 hrs...

after tht....
bath hot water...
jing shen ad...
den still continue my war...
haha...

thts my daily life nw...

arghh~
PMR still hv abt 81 days....

and trial exam still gt abt 3 weeks...

add oil to all....
especially those who wan go in Anggerik nex year...
haha...

me??...
my target jz cempaka...
at least gt 1 sbj os nt bored at all...
haha...

7July birth's....

this year quite special... coz celebrate without mei jun,JY.... every year oso gt dem celebrate v me.... bt dis year all oso gt tution... coz of PMR....

Friday cnt go TESCO.... sry abt tht... n thx u guys' present...

Sat nite go Curve's Thony Romas celebrate...
my dad ordered Ribs....
dammmnnn expensive....
bt dammn tasty...

Sunday go 1u v tc,sk,jm,cs,neo,jia seng,zhikit,elaine...

early morning received abt 22 msgs.... thx guys....

i tot tht day jm wont come....
bt whn i walked dere...
saw him...
surprise....
haha...
bt b4 tht i gt guess a bit ad...
jz telling myself it wont be happen...
bt its really happened...

wtch eclipse.... i tot it'll be dammn nice... bt saga n new moon is better... i tot dis chp will talk abt Bella bcome a vampire... Jacob v her daughter.... after tht shop v elaine... boys go snooker...

take pic too....














1st Elaine n I took d most nice one....

i felt tht...
tht day i was treat jm a bit cold....
sry....

i oso try to treat u better... haha... u too arh....

OK!!! frm today hv to hardwork....
no more hanging out v frens anymore til PMR end....

still hv 83days....
whole world F3 students starting to countdown everyday... haha....

oh ya...
n thx for all d presents....

thx~
Dahlia's frens~
Elaine~
Jenny,Hui Wen,Pei si~
and more~

thx mei xin~

wah....si beh pai seh....

barely most of form3 ppl oso knw my birthday ad....
even chui yi oso knw...
hving lunch suddenly sing birthday song for me....
haha....

tq la....

and sry jenny, hu wei, wei li, pei si.....
i cnt go tesco....
my mom loh...
haiz....

hope tmw or sunday she giv me go out lah....

haha...1st wishes frm Nicolas Kok at fb....
2nd is Elaine's jimui....

tq la....

and tq Elaine...
cuz i hv u...
i still understand n more happy...n feel more comfortable....
n tq u alwys accompany whn i've sadness, happiness, trouble....
thx ya....

and tq mei xin....
thx for yr birthday wishes n song n yr strawberry....
haha....

n tq lao gong...
i understand u cnt celebrate v me la....
no need to apologize...

actually sometime u're very very dammn idiot....
n nt romantic at all....
n dammnn....chi dun....
bt u oso treat me quite gud la....
haha....

n tq H....
n sry abt tht....
hope u really can put down n be happy....
thx for yr wishes....
i'll promise u....
hope whn we talk v each other dun wan very gam gai la...
i ok d...
frens mah rite??

haha....

n tq 军宇....
no need expressly bring present to my hse larh...
haha....
nex time whn gt gathering still giv me la....

n thx for all of u guys lah....

Everytime oso like dis....

today so, so special....
mong seng call me ask me smth....
den he say he's at church....
and wei ann is bside him...

haha...
cht v tat soh lou abt 20 mins...
long time dint chat v him ad...

he still same....
nth hv chge....
even his funny joke....

haha....

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haiz...
nt sure can go Tesco n 1u onot...

Tesco jz scared mom suddenly nt giv one...

1u whn mom heard i'm going v her....
she say no....
everytime oso like tat....
nt fair one u knw...
whn i said i wan go out v A or M sure u'll giv...

normally i can go timesquare d...
bt whn u knw A is going v me u still giv....

u said jz 2 girls go very dangerous...
bt i gt went out b4 v M hundred times....
oso 2 of girls ony lo....
bt u oso giv....

bt why everytime whn u heard is her u dun giv....

asked dad....
dad ask go v hu...
i said....
bt sounds like u dun giv too....
haiz...

MY BIRTHDAY o~!!!!!

haiz....
suan liao....
dis year sure celebrate v books...

i'm going to prepare a spect ald de larh....