after SEJ period...
no mood dy...
cuz of??
many mistakes on teacher gave us d model paper...
fine...
i dun wanna say anything...

after eng tution...
more no mood...
cuz of??...
summary got 6 and 7...
objective many mistakes...
teacher said...
my graphic damn cha...
agree v tht...
in front of d 10 Q...
guess wt??..
i jz got it 5 correct nia...
useless....
if i get PMR result like this...
sure i'll insane...

WTH is wrong v me these days arh??...
its reli in a control situation at first...
bt nw...
getting worse....
Lord!!!
wt r u planning for the Human nw??...

at begining...
had gained lots of energy...
nw??....

haih...
suak...
dun say dis n tat dy...

keep doing n memorizing...
till PMR...
whnever hw hard it is...
sure i'll continue put effort...

guys...
still left abt 7 days...
done packing to ''hell''?...

even keep doing model test oso useless...
used to much on brain...
cant rmbr anything...

duno weather keep doinglike dis is gud for me or not...
this while week....
1 smth still felt as sleep...

duno WTH is wrong v me oso...

mayb gonna get a cold soon....
sneezing...

so many things waiting for me to understand...
so many things waiting for me to tink...
so many things waiting fo me figure it out...
so many things waiting for me to do a decision...
so many things waiting for me to plan...

every night....
every hours....
..........
headache larh....

disappear to a place tat thr's no one...

no joyment...
no melancholy...
no radiant...
no excitement...

Phuket trip part 1~

evening go airport eat Burger King....
tat french fries was nice n crispy....
at least better thn McD...

after 1 hr flight....
still hv 1 hr destination by car to hotel....
den meet Uncle Alen's family....
they jz staying our nex door niah....
haha....

after dinner hv a walk along d street....
i dint saw any ah gua at 1st....
but whn we went in a street tat hv many pubs....
OMG...
thr's many girls or i'm nt sure is ah gua....
was dancing around up thr n so many wthching....
and some took some video even my dad oso....
haha....

walk....walk....
whn i was walking v my fren hu is jz a little girl abt 7 yrs old....
a fcking Thai guy go n touch her face!!!
i was shocked tat time...
thn she ran away to her mom...
n i jz stared fiercely on tat mother fucker Thai guy...
wtf v tat guy larh....
even a little girl oso wanna touch...
go n do ah gua larh...
most hate those guys...
EVER!!!

we bought some supper....
walk bck hotel n ate at d balcony....

nex day tmw still post la....
nex day d will be more fun....

信心!!!!!!!!
come back please!!!!!!!
without you i cant do anything~!!!!!!!
i keep doing sejarah exercise....
but yet....
still 60-65 nia....
still need 5 marks.....
still needs 6 Q arghhhhh!!!!!!
alwys keep doing....
dint improve....
no信心ald larh!!!!!
i dun wan jz 3A....
i wan 4A....
please lah.....
come back to me.....
alwys do do do.....
why cant improve??....
i ald duno hv how many days i dint do science ald.....
i still hv to care science....
still wanna care sej....
arghhhh!!!!!!
hard to arrange it larh!!!!!

now i jz need u....

信心!!!!!
信心信心信心信心信心信心!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
回来回来回来回来回来回来!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Life Recycling....
sucks~.....

duno why suddenly so tired....
suddenly no energy....
suddenly feels no 信心....
i cant get 4A....
Sej...jz improved a bit....
BI...i wanna get more higher....
SC....scared suddenlty get a B come bck....
MM....same as sc.....

panic.....

but fortunately....
hv few buddies is always beside me....
i LOVE u guys....

Mei Guan...
if i hv a life n brain like yrs sure i'll hang out v u now....
so jz tahan a while...
after 1 mnth i'll hang out v u....

thx yr words....
made me more energy nw....
^^....

GAMBATEH~!!!!!

i hate "u"!!!!
i hate my double chin~!!!
haiz....
my face day after day....
getting fatter and fatter already....

i said i'll not eat too much at night...
but jz nw suddenly hungry....
and my stupid bro say wanna cook baigans to do sandwich....
haiz....
really hard to control larh....

tmw go jogging....
these 2 weeks exercise everyday....
hope i relly can do tat....

and i jz said some brainless words v my mom....
"nvm....if no ones wan me...i jz married to a fat boy oso ok....bt at least tat guy must hv a good job....at least can "feed" me...."...
haha....

sometimes....
whhn i'm talking v someone....
i felt my double chin was shaking u knw....

tats why i reli reli reli scared my double chin can turn to a TRIPLE chin....

PMR!!!!~
ON DIET!!!!~
hooorraayyyyy~

half day happy....
half day unhappy.....

mei xin told me abt yr things.....
smoke??....
lol....
up to u.....

whn someone ask me to list out....
whn i'm tinking abt u....
hw was d person are u in my mind....

plyful....
quite clever de bt dint reli used it
talkative
quite good
and said b4 d words dint take action....

tat person ask again....
thn u like dis kind of person??....

my hands stopped....
did i like dis type of person???.....
did i??....

ans....
not reli.....

and d person says....
cause 没有爱.....
lack of love.....

ya rite.....
ald lack of love between he n i....

this time i ald awake....
i reli reli awake.....

i'll nt going to bck v u....
this is d last time i said.....
i swear.....

YAY~!!!!
our 2 weeks of vacation started nw.....
BOoOO~!!!!
our war oso started nw.....

guys~
it's a good news u knw....
teacher gave us extremely lots of practice books....
sej hv to finish whole book....
even eng too.....
bc 2 model test n essays.....
eng essay....
science 2 sets....
math jz 1 set....
plus my home's practice books....

do more gain more....
haha.....

11-14 go pukit....
4 days dere....
grab books to read at dere.....

lol....
i'm unique k??....
i can study v nature sounds n view.....
d ocean wave's sounds....
u guys jz jealous cant study it like tat isit....
haha....
jkjk....

actually i oso nt sure i can reli study at dere onot....
bt try lo.....

i read a book tat i borrow frm Pn.Ong....
i found a nice one.....

....每个人都有自己的一片天空....

....那片天空是多么的美丽....

....最终都要用奋斗的双手去把它变成现实....

....只要不放弃自己....

....坚持下去....

....就能实现人生价值....

kek cht v me today....
he said whn we broke up....
u're so so so sad....
even at d midnight u still cant slp....
evan at d midnight u still sms kek....

kek said....
u both reli ant couple bck again ah....

i said....
u hvnt chged....
u hvnt reli reli put effort on yr exam....
coz u said those wt u'll hardwork....
n get a good result...
n wt wt wt.....
those nonscence....

u said hw could i together v u bck??....
if u hvnt chged yr attitude or wt....
if i bck v u together....
den if it happen same things again....
i scared will happen again.....

if u reli reli chged....
mayb i'll still "consider"....
jz consider....

bt the thing tat i scared n worried is....
even myself oso duno still luv u onot....

tats why i dint tell anything out....
n tats why i rather choose a way....
tat can be made me bz till forget to tink ths tngs....

confuse....
confuse....
confuse....

n you suddenly email to me....
"how is yr exam"....
i'm still thinking weather wan replyu u onot....
n i tink....
i hurt u so so much b4....
and now....
i replied u....
" great....improved a lot...."
this words as simple n sounds dint hurt a lot...."

muahahahaha~!!!!

i get dual sbj in 77 marks today....
haha....

1st is mahts....
gt a bit disappointed....
i expect tat i'll get 80 smth....
nvm lah....
at least improved 3 marks....
haha....

2nd is scinece....
d most happiest things is....
i'd beat mong seng....
haha....

this time jz get 2A....
nvm...
keep moving!!!!!....

those whnever u're improved or worse thn last time de...
nvm...
u guys hv to stand up n keep continue to walk....
still gt times....
it's not d time to upset nw....

so we hv to prepare nex "war"....
haha....