4 things tat i most hate....

doing for smth tat shouldn't done....
MOOD....

crying for smth tat shouldn't cried....
FEELINGS....

changing smth tat shouldn't chged....
ATTITUDE....

loving for someone tat shouldn't loved....
HEART....

mood, feelings, attitude, heart....
i hate them....

if human being dun hv these 4 thigns...
mayb the world'll be peaceful...

有机会的,并没有XXX....
并没有把握与珍惜....

而一些...
处处是有半点希望与机会的....
并没有去争取....
到了机会走了....
采来后悔....
可是已迟了....
因为.................

那时候明明就是可以爱....
可是他们为什么就是不能??....
可惜的是.................................

我不明白....
为什么就是不能够单纯的爱呢??

说走就走....
说来就来....
很难控制....

其实x是很想要告诉x,x心里的话....
X很难采用有那么大的勇气....
X既然说出那些话来伤X....

呼....
confuse....
very confuse....

爱情就是一个谜....

i rather choose my life would be busy everyday....
i rather i hv examination everyday....
i rather dont wan love anyone....
i rather dont wan recognize u frm a begining....
i rather dont wan love u....
i rather dont let u come into my world....

说真的...
在考试的镇个星期....
我几乎是可以把你忘了....
可是考试后.....

我现在才明白你们当初jealous我的感觉了....
haha....
但我看到有人很恩爱时....
就会浑身不知在了....

算了....
慢慢就会习惯了....

在这里下定决心....
不再爱任何一个人了....

yay me~!!!!

i got 60 on my SEJ~!!!
muahahahha....
improved 12 marks....

d most surprised me d is...
chinese i got 23 correct....
HOHO~...
b4 tat it's jz 16 or 17 niah...

today sooooo dramatic lea~...
soo teng cried...
teacher cried....
me too...
mei xin too...
khar yi too...

haha....
i'm falling in love v........
Pn.DEVI rite nw...!!!!
haha....

................................................................

lol....
u said u'll starting to hardwork...
n try yr best to gain a good result come bck...
u said u'll chge...
u said u'll gain 8A's come bck...

nonscencse....

u got 37 on yr sej...
n teacher giv a chance for all of us to let us pass....
bt u dint go n gain d 3 marks...

it means...
u're nt care on yr marks at all....

i tot u're reli reli reli chged....

fine...

it's nt my business nw...

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monday....
soooo excited....^^.....

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4A's...

BI.....
SCIENCE.....
MATHS.....
SEJ.....

4 of u...
waiting for me
haha

Coffee~

drink 1st cup...
still sleepy...

drink 2nd cup...
ok...
got gain half of energy....

nite...
1smth...
felt like canot breath...

go slp...
cnt slp...
f*ck...
whn i wan full of energy u feel slpy...
whn i wan slp u full of energy...

nex day...
more worse...
even whn i was talking oso cnt breath...

reli reli xing ku...
nvm...
still got 2 days...

一定要坚强...

insane~...gonna be insane~....

it's truth...

爱情是个可怕&奇怪的东西...

它虽然会带来幸福....

不过也会带来伤心...

难道这世界上就不能够没有爱情吗??...

真的很难控制...

当我真的真的开始不在乎你的时候...

你却突然出现...

当你出现后...

又把我的心带回来...

明明已经跨出了一半的....

拜托...

爱情别再这样戏弄人类了好吗??...

不过我一定会坚持到底的...

send me a mail at fb....
i ald giv up....

finally...
say it out frm himself...

at fb chat list...
he said...

~jz wanna say thank you...

and i send a mail to him...

~hope u'll find another one that better than me someday....
and....
hope u'll get a good result on yr exam....
u're a smart guy...dont wasted it...

n he replied...
~ok thanks...
jz this simple 2 words...

mayb...
it means...
he ald giv up??...

sigh~
it's reli reli over...
it's a good news~...

slowly we'll put down...
n slowly we'll jz be a normal fren...

^^....

it's over~....

finally...
heard frm kek....

(he'd ald giv up on u ald...
so no need to say those hurts him d words anymore...)

my feeling...
half happy...
half feeling down...

but...
it's ok...
coz i starting dint feel anything...
whn celine n him walking together...
like no feeling ald lo...

haha...
it's a good news...

i'd said...
i'll put u down someday...

今天既然又X了.....

分开....
对我们的未来会有好处....
也是因为我的自私....

在班满尴尬...
党要去问老师问题时...
走到一半....
看到你在那里....
变转身回来了....

下课....
看到你和celine一起走....
心情还可以....

可是到了放学....
在你的后面又看到你们一起走....

心情....
低落....

在你们的后面走着....
觉得你们满配的....

到了canteen....
美心一问我做么...
我就跟他说刚才....
美心一说...是啦...一看到就看到你的....

一下子....
X了....
好才全部人都去买东西了....

LOL....
这不是你想要的吗??....
不是说了要放下吗??....
既然都做好决定了还想那么多干嘛??....

有时....
会影响到读书....
所以一直想办法去避免想....

................................................................................

~ Small eyes....!!!
~ Shut up....yr eyes jz bigger than mine 0.5cm ony k??...
~ okok....but oso bigger than u wt....
~ ==''....so?? oso small larh at least....

...............................................................................

~ yimin...come....
WALKING DERE
~ wt??....
~ your eyes so small....
~ ==''....
WALKING BCK....

..............................................................................

~ eh....走啦我请你吃东西....
~ 很不双老师咯....!!!
~ 做么??....
~ 都不会同情给一点时间人家写的!!还跟人家抢考试纸!
~ 啊呀他是讲得拉~...你看我的手很冷列....
把手放到我的脸来....
真个人呆了....
只是傻傻的....也跟着讲....
~ 是咯~我也是~刚才一边写一边斗....
只是咪咪笑笑...

..............................................................................

~ 喂~ 你在哪里??.........
~ 我啊~ 在车回着penang lo....
~ 噢....江没有拉....bb....

.............................................................................

............折了星星..............

~ 顺杰...我丢看你接到没有....
~ 不是....desa 你不是应该去的mea....
tck mng 跑去前面....
~ 来!!!依敏....看你丢给谁....!!

把星星丢去另一边了...
actually wanna throw to.....

...........................................................................

.............msn..................

~ bye bye...giv me a goodbye kiss....
~ no....
~ why....
~ coz why i wan give lea?....
~ no reason....
.........................................................................

~ slp ald??....
~ hvnt...cnt slp....
~ why??....
~ duno....
~ must be a reson d....
~ duno....
~ tell me why??....
~ cuz i duno someone tinking wt....
~ hu??
~ duno....u guess....
~ hu? i duno....
~ u larh!!!!....
~ oh...why u tinking abt me??....
~ wt the....i dun wan talk v u ald...
~ i knw tat "ting"....
~ can u tell me wt are u tinking nw??...u nt like XXX mea? why still come n confess v me??....
~ i dun like XXX....
~ really??
~ ya la...den y i everday oso stick v you bside yr place??....
~ cuz i tot dere is more windy more cold...n...i tot u like 2 ppl...
~ no larh...so....wt is yr ans nw??....

...........开始做龙他............

~ wt answer??
~ u duno wt ans arh?
~ duno o...if u ask properly again maybe i'll knw wts d ans....
~ oh... you can be my gf??....

..........walao....一点romantic oso dun hv...........
.....................so mad abt it...........................

~ erm...let me tink 1st....
~ dun wan tink ald larh....jz say yes....
~ erm....altough yr eyes is smaller thn mine...bt i still can accept it....
so...d ans is...yes....
~ whoohoo!! ok la...den i wan slp ald...
~ WT?? like dis ony arh??u jz wan say like thse??
~ i wan slp ald ar...i'm tired nw...

............当时我就是这样被骗走的............
haiz~
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看见你on9...
有点冲动想跟你chat....
但是不能....
不可以....
一定要控制自己....

好像跟你讲话.....

dream...

i dreamed u again n again...

lol...

stop dreaming abt him anymore larh...

arggh...

jz made me headache...

morning wake up automatically think so many thingss...

haih...

as i said...

need some time...

bt sure i'll put it down one day...

n morning felt like...

half awake half slp...

n think abt hv to start to throw away those nonsence stories...

hv to work hard...

gambateh!!!

one day study 2 chpter geo...

2 chpter sej...

nice one...

^^...

let's be a nerd or bookworm in these few weeks...

yay....

i'm a nerdy...

haha

对不起...
我一定要说出这些这些绝请的话...

这样才可以伤到你更生...
这样你猜会死心...

为了我的前途...
我必须这样做...

说真的...
要放下你一定是舍不得...
我是真得很喜欢你的...
到现在还是一样...
不过我一定会为了我的前途而放下你...
我现在的心已不像再谈恋爱了...
我现在只想全心放在学业上面...
我只会永远的把你藏在我的心理...
我只可以这样做...

骗了你说我已不爱你...
你真的不相信...

所以我必须在做出更狠的话来让你停此巨续爱我...
所以我们不能够做朋友...
我们一定要做敌人...
我可以做一个很容易变心，很坏的女孩子...
就像kek所说的...
女孩子就是散变...

所以我一定要假装讨厌你...

说真的...
我现在很开心我有个single life...

tmw is my new day...
my new life...
my new single life...

this will be 维持 until after spm...
so my frens no need to anxious about me lah...
^^...
coz our yimin is coming bck soon...

说得对...
在我们的生活当中朋友对我们来说很重要...
谢谢美欣...
一样的病...haha...
谢谢老婆...
还讲笑话给我听...
谢谢elaine...
给我那么多的意见...
谢谢佩寺...
谢谢佳议& 呆舒...
谢谢kek...
谢谢传汉...
谢谢亲爱的弟弟...
还有谢谢很多人...

哭过了自然就累...
累了就睡觉...

既然梦到...
也是一样...
我们分了...
在班没有讲话...
一支躲避对方...
既然也会梦到酱...
funny~

你说你知道我还喜欢你...
你会等我直到after PMR...
你要和我巨续after PMR...
你说你会努力读书考好成绩...
你说你要和我做会朋友...

很开心你或努力...
不过我们的关系不能再换回了...
就算你考到好成绩或什么的...
我们不可能了...

我不会和你做朋友的...
我要你死心...
我也不要让你干扰到我的情绪在这两个月...
所以我们只可以做敌人...

俊铭...
thx for the memories...

huh~...

frm d begining...
yr stupid confess...
yr stupid action...
yr迟钝brain...
made me cry few times...
missing each other...

and more...
i'll hv these happy n sad memories...
thx for giving me...

mayb i'll one by one throw into d rubbish..
or mayb i'll save in my heart...

starting to enjoy my new life bah^^...

the end of d story~

总于解决问题了....
以后不会再烦这个问题了...
其实一开始明知是没有结果的还硬要踩下去...

今天是我第一天要开始慢慢放下你的一天...

也是 ''已经'' 放下你的一天...

也就是说...

今天开始已经是我不爱俊铭的一天...

也就是说...

今天我跟你分手了...

觉得松了口气...

其实一开始你想太多...
造成了大家辛苦...
造成了我开始累...恨...
到最后造成了我不喜欢你了...

就算再回一起...
回快乐吗??...

我跟一个已不爱他的人在一起...
那我回快乐吗??...
还是难道你想要跟一个以不爱你的人在一起...
那你会快乐吗??...

所以我在这里清清楚楚地告诉你...

我已经对你没有感觉了...俊铭...
我不爱你了...俊铭...


I DUN LOVE YOU ANYMORE!!!

不要再烦我了...

俊铭...
你已经走出我的世界了...

i dun care u??....
i treat u cool??....
i dint accompany u??....
i dint talk much with u??....

i'm tired of these topic nw....
i'm sick to think about these nw...
i dun wanna to explain these anymore...

i'd ald "rang bu" a lot...
bt...

in the end i jz wanna say...
i still love you...

can i both oso choose??...

huh~

funny...

i tot it'll be ok...

i tot it was manage nicely...

i tot it'll be changed till...

lols...

all jz my "thaught"...

if both also can handle it...

it'll be better...

but...

these days i was very bz of my "books"...
coz trial exam is coming...
so i hv to work more hard...

n coz of ths...
i'd colded my lao gong...
bt at least i gt cht v u rite??
afte i'd done...
sure i'll find u...

u mad of me again...
i oso felt some sry abt tht...
bt day over day...
time over time...
i'm getting anxious abt my result...

coz of my sej till nw i still cant get confident on it....
coz of my geo till nw can say my whole form3 oso duno wts happening on it...
so i hv to solve ths all prob den i still wont keep worrying ths things...

i saw many ppl in d class starting very hard to prepare deir examination...
made me more anxious...

so i cant jz leave it my prob go n ply or wt...
thrs not enough time for me anymore...

day after day jz letting me more worry abt it...

u said i dint care abt u...
u said i dint cht v u after i came bck frm hometown...

u knw why??
coz we'd nt enough time...
dont u felt any nervous or worry on yr pmr??
do u wan everyday keep plying like dis??
u wan yr sej or geo or others sbj keep dropping like dis??

if i'm nt care u anymore den hw can i everyday worrying yr result too??
sometimes whn i dint cht v u coz of i'm studying or wt...
after tht i sure come n cht v u...

bt like today...
after jian hua explained finish sej to me...
i go n sit bside u...
bt u jz cht v me few words...
i felt some bored...
nth to do...
den i saw khar yi drawer gt sej book...
den i borrow frm her n read while...
n ask her some quest...

coz of tht time i was feeling bored nth to do...
den still dun waste d time jz sitting dere n dreaming...
so i jz read while...

whn i sitting dere
u oso dun hv talk v me...

haih....
really coz of my fault...
i dint balance btw reading..
mayb its n u...

n sry made u so unhappy ths days...
i'll manage my time well...
sry lao gong...

today lao gong 1st time tell me so many abt his feelings...
so happy...

lao gong say our relationship bcame further n further...

actually i tink...
其实只要彼此的心还在对方的心den ok ald...
只要we still love each other...

even we're busy or dint chat or wt...
the main point is...
we still love each other...
and still missing each other...
rite??

like today...
when i was studying...
i felt tht i'm missing him...
bt i knw i cant cht v him...
coz i hv to finish my work 1st...

so we hv to pull bck our relationship...

sometimes i really cant control myself...
especially my dammn mouth...
i like to say those words tht are colded u or yr feelings or wt...
so made u moody n mad of me...
n made u felt tht i'm nt care u...

i jz duno why...
sometimes i like to say some words tht colded u...
den after tht sometimes i'll felt some regret...
i wanna apologize sometimes...
bt我就是死爱脸...
cant say out...
so after tht i dint tink anymore...

bt sometimes i'd done something wrong...
i oso duno d...
so sometimes i jz saw u silent den i tot is u're tired or wt...
so i dint bother u...

bt oso coz of u dint tell me ma...
hw i knw jiek...

nvm...
nex time b4 i say things hv to pass through my big brain...